sorry.and i actually do apologize for doing so. i feel sometimes if i don't write here i'm letting myself or even other people down. I don't have any inspiration to write anything lately. well i mean i do have one think i would really like to write about really badly but i think i rather just keep this one to myself. it's actually kind of frustrating and its been bothering me a lot. but oh well. hopefully things will work itself out
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its not fairi feel like i am living through old memories right now its hard to explain. each day i remember how things were at this exact moment last year. was i making you happy? was i doing something wrong? most likely.its not fair
i look back on all the things i did for you everything i gave you i gave you my all. and always felt let down when i did.
what do i deserve in life? what am i supposed to be in life? what am i supposed to do next?
should i talk to you and act like i'm sorry even though i am not? do i regret burning all the letters you gave me? do i r
by ~Adama7x
lost times.was there ever a time in your life where you were just so depressed but when you look back on it you are disgusted by what you did?lost times.
when i do that i look back on the same moment every time
i remember myself breaking everything in my room that could possibly break taking pills to try and go to sleep
taking blood away from precious life to let all the anger out
running away and trying to find a place that wont hurt me
i remember the next day not being able to think clearly my eyes being so wide open from getting hardly any sleep because i was crying all night. crying i
by ~Adama7x
never.all my life i've felt useless. i'm not quite sure why. i feel like whenever i try to do something i always screw up in the end.never.
no matter how hard i work at it.
people try to convince me that i'm doing everything wrong. but it's just the way i am
i don't mean to stay up till 6 in the morning. do you think i enjoy not sleeping? lying down with my eyes shot up at the ceiling
thinking about almost everything i could possibly think of.
i clear my head try to get comfortable i close my eyes
and i just keep tossing and turning &nb
by ~Adama7x
did you ever wonderwhen i was little believe it or not i would always wonder about how i would turn out when i got to be around the age i am right now.did you ever wonder
a big part of me is let down..
i wish i was smarter i wish i was better looking i wish i never had all these confusions.
i think so much it actually amazes me. i don't understand how i can be thinking about someone i actually like or even about a really happy memory
but at the same time wondering about how i might try to end my life.
do you ever wonder what the world would be like without you? every time i do. &n
by ~Adama7x
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- Current Residence: i live in canada..
- Interests: music, hockey, computers, leadership things, oli sykes..
- Favourite movie: saving private ryan, star wars, the matrix, lord of the rings, step brothers alot moreee
- Favourite band or musician: Avenged Sevenfold and Bring Me The Horizon
- Favourite genre of music: All. But mostly metal
- Favourite artist: Lights
- Favourite poet or writer: the ones that talk about killing themselves
- Favourite photographer: amanda
- Favourite style of art: fucking
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- Favourite gaming platform: usually 360 sometimes computer
- Personal Quote: "life is a whore and a half"
- Tools of the Trade: my dick and a pencil
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